I wish I didn’t care

COM-Apathy2That apathetic drive me crazy.

And I want to join them.

Like most politically engaged people, I often find myself railing against those who really don’t care. I try hard not to resort to denigrating terms like “sheeple,” but I do launch into the occasional diatribe, bemoaning the hopelessly uninformed, and the pessimistic do-nothing attitudes of so many Americans.

But having labored as a political activist for more than three years now, I find myself feeling more and more sympathy for the apathetic, the disengaged and the generally clueless. In fact – I envy them.

Political activism is hard.

I find it always taxing, often discouraging and seldom as rewarding as I once imagined i would be. I endure personal attacks, spend countless hours lulling myself into a coma reading boring legislation, and  I constantly find myself engaged in battles – generally with political adversaries, but sometime with supposed allies.

Not infrequently, I imagine life away from the political rat-race. I used to work as a sports writer, and sometimes I long for those days. How delightfully tempting to simply lose myself in games and recruiting news. How wonderful it must be to absorb hours of time following a puck across a clean sheet of ice. I would love to just read a book for the heck of it.

I wish I didn’t care.

And I understand more and more why so many don’t. They feel like they can’t make a difference. So, why expend time, energy and resources trying? Relax. Hang out. Enjoy life.

Thomas Jefferson captured the sentiments of ‘everyman’ in the Declaration of Independence.

…and accordingly all experience hath shewn, that mankind are more disposed to suffer, while evils are sufferable, than to right themselves by abolishing the forms to which they are accustomed.

It’s easier to just get along and get by than rock the boat.

I understand. I sympathize. And I envy you.

But for whatever reason, I wasn’t wired that way. I feel almost driven to try to make a difference – or at least try. I couldn’t disengage if I wanted to.

I cannot suffer evil, even while sufferable.

I must fight.

And I will.

4 Responses to “I wish I didn’t care”

  1. MartinaWFebruary 19, 2014 at 1:28 am #

    You are not alone.

    Sometimes it does feel like plugging back into the Matrix would be such an easier life.

  2. Steve PahsFebruary 19, 2014 at 11:19 am #

    It’s easier to pull a chain than to push it. I hope I don’t have to explain the analogy.
    In Oct 66′ I found myself on the ground in Infantry in a unit that had just taken horrific casualties. My greatest concerns were if I had the courage and character to face what was coming. Adversity requires courage and it reveals character rather than build it. At 5 months I was wounded and med-evacced to Japan for several months. My war was over. My life began anew. I was 19. My overwhelming thought was “how could this all have happened?” Where do I start finding out? College, family, career, but always back burner “how, why?”
    About 90′ it sunk in. “Follow the Money”. Central Banking IS central planning. I became obsessed with it. Nearly lost my family. I had to learn to pull the chain. I have.

    • Michael MaharreyFebruary 19, 2014 at 5:33 pm #

      Much wisdom there.


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